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I'm sorry if my blogs have been gloomy lately, but i write how i feel. I have my ups and  i have my downs. Overall, i know that no matter what happens that God is in control and he will take care of me. Yet in still, i have emotions and even though i look strong on the outside, I'm hurting on the inside and it shows every now and then. I feel like i lost a piece of my soul....

I'm learning how to deal with this kind of pain and give it God. It's not that easy being that i want to control everything. But this situation is not in my control and only God himself can help. When you feel like you have done all that you can do, you have no choice but to stand on his word and pray. Although i may cry, that does not mean that i am weak. That is how i release my feelings when i don't have the words to say. I would have never thought my life would turn in this direction but what God has for me is for me! I can feel a blessing coming from all of this, I'm just trying to be patient to receive it.